Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell. ~Edna St Vincent Millay


Love is missing someone whenever you're apart, but somehow feeling warm inside because you're close in heart. ~Kay Knudsen


Sometimes, when one person is missing, the whole world seems depopulated. ~Lamartine


All days are nights to see till I see thee,
And nights bright days when dreams do show thee to me.
~William Shakespeare, "Sonnet XLIII"


Can miles truly separate you from friends.... If you want to be with someone you love, aren't you already there? ~Richard Bach





How like a winter hath my absence been
From thee, the pleasure of the fleeting year!
What freezings have I felt, what dark days seen!
What old December's bareness everywhere!
~William Shakespeare, "Sonnet XCVII"


Nothing makes the earth seem so spacious as to have friends at a distance; they make the latitudes and longitudes. ~Henry David Thoreau


If I had a single flower for every time I think about you, I could walk forever in my garden. ~Claudia Ghandi


Within you I lose myself...
Without you I find myself
Wanting to be lost again.
~Author Unknown


Parting is all we know of heaven and all we need to know of hell. ~Emily Dickinson, "Parting"


Gone - flitted away,
Taken the stars from the night and the sun
From the day!
Gone, and a cloud in my heart.
~Alfred Tennyson



Absence from whom we love is worse than death, and frustrates hope severer than despair. ~William Cowper


What is the opposite of two? A lonely me, a lonely you. ~Richard Wilbur


No distance of place or lapse of time can lessen the friendship of those who are thoroughly persuaded of each other's worth. ~Robert Southey


Your absence has gone through me
Like thread through a needle
Everything I do is stitched with its color.
~W.S. Merwin, "Separation"


Thou art gone from my gaze like a beautiful dream.
And I seek thee in vain by the meadow and stream.
~George Linley


Love reckons hours for months, and days for years; and every little absence is an age. ~John Dryden


Every parting is a form of death, as every reunion is a type of heaven. ~Tryon Edwards




When I go away from you
The world beats dead
Like a slackened drum....
~Amy Lowell, "The Taxi"


Life is so short, so fast the lone hours fly,
We ought to be together, you and I.
~Henry Alford, "You and I" (Thanks, Jenn)


As contraries are known by contraries, so is the delight of presence best known by the torments of absence. ~Alcibiades


Oft in the tranquil hour of night,
When stars illume the sky,
I gaze upon each orb of light,
And wish that thou wert by.
~George Linley


Days of absence, sad and dreary,
Clothed in sorrow's dark array, -
Days of absence, I am weary;
She I love is far away.
~Jean-Jacques Rousseau


You left, and my heart is a ceaseless sermon of loneliness. ~Jaesse Tyler


In true love the smallest distance is too great, and the greatest distance can be bridged. ~Hans Nouwens


The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected. ~Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook


What shall I do with all the days and hours
That must be counted ere I see thy face?
How shall I charm the interval that lowers
Between this time and that sweet time of grace?
~Frances Anne Kemble



I think about you constantly, whether it's with my mind or my heart. ~Albany Bach Reid




I keep coming back to you in my head, but you couldn't know that, and I have no carbons. ~Adrienne Rich


I am tired, Beloved,
of chafing my heart against
the want of you;
of squeezing it into little inkdrops,
And posting it.
~Amy Lowell, "The Letter"


I dropped a tear in the ocean. The day you find it is the day I will stop missing you. ~Author Unknown


To die and part is a less evil; but to part and live, there, there is the torment. ~George Lansdowne




In the hope to meet
Shortly again, and make our absence sweet.
~Ben Jonson


The joy of meeting pays the pangs of absence; else who could bear it? ~Nicholas Rowe


Why can't we get all the people together in the world that we really like and then just stay together? I guess that wouldn't work. Someone would leave. Someone always leaves. Then we would have to say good-bye. I hate good-byes. I know what I need. I need more hellos. ~Charles M. Schulz



Where'er I roam, whatever realms to see,
My heart untravelled, fondly turns to thee;
Still to my brother turns, with ceaseless pain,
And drags at each remove a lengthening chain.
~Oliver Goldsmith, The Traveller


Missing someone gets easier every day because even though it's one day further from the last time you saw each other, it's one day closer to the next time you will. ~Author Unknown


We only part to meet again. ~John Gay


She went her unremembering way,
She went and left in me
The pang of all the partings gone,
And partings yet to be.
~Francis Thompson


One kind kiss before we part,
Drop a tear, and bid adieu;
Though we sever, my fond heart
Till we meet shall pant for you.
~Robert Dodsley


As the presence of those we love is as a double life, so absence, in its anxious longing and sense of vacancy, is as a foretaste of death. ~Anna Brownell Jameson


Ye flowers that drop, forsaken by the spring,
Ye birds that, left by summer, cease to sing,
Ye trees that fade, when Autumn heats remove,
Say, is not absence death to those who love?
~Alexander Pope


A goodbye isn't painful unless you're never going to say hello again. ~Author Unknown


Don't be dismayed by good-byes. A farewell is necessary before you can meet again. And meeting again after moments or a lifetime is certain for those who are friends. ~Richard Bach


Ever absent, ever near;
Still I see thee, still I hear;
Yet I cannot reach thee, dear!
~Francis Kazinczy




Missing you could turn from pain to pleasure, if I knew you were missing me too. ~Author Unknown


Absence diminishes little passions and increases great ones, as the wind extinguishes candles and fans a fire. ~Francois Duc de la Rochefoucauld, translated from French


The eternal quest of the individual human being is to shatter his loneliness. ~Norman Cousins


It is loneliness that makes the loudest noise. This is true of men as of dogs. ~Eric Hoffer


I think we dream so we don't have to be apart so long. If we're in each other's dreams, we can play together all night. ~Bill Watterson, Calvin & Hobbes

True giving happens when you are overflowing from the inside, and cannot help but share. When there is so much love within you that it has to flow to others or you would burst open. There is no thinking involved, no willpower in such sharing. It just flows out. If you have to force yourself to be kind, to love, to feel compassion, you've missed the first step of filling in your own Self with these emotions.

I've lately realized that I've been searching for outside validation of myself for at least the last 34 years :)

I've also learned in the past few weeks that it doesn't do for me to look to someone else to fill that "hole" in my heart. Because even if I do find someone that can make me feel good from the outside... it will only cause me to crave it more... and eventually destroy whatever relationship I may have with them... because there is no way that a mere HUMAN can keep up with my needs... therefore it will just cause them to burn out.

I've found that I've always waited for someone on the outside to fill that void... but no one can do that for me. I have to love myself... I have to let GOD love me... and when God loves me the love will just flow from my soul.

I am now aware that I would get a charge from having someone turn my way, whether I was interested in them or not... it was like a drug... and I was addicted... so now, I'm quitting my habit. I just hope it's not too late.

Love you guys

I was noting a pattern today... the kind of "men" I attract (I use that term loosely because I'd say there aren't many real men in the list I've brought to myself lately) seem to decide that I'm disposable, decide to choose someone else... and she said:

you choose men who are too damn stupid to hang onto what they have with you & go back to an unfulfilling but known relationship. Or rather these men choose you because you make them feel good about themselves. You appreciate their talents etc & then they do something stupid like get their ex knocked up so they go back to a bad but comfortable relationship because they are used to the routine.

Ooooh... isn't this fun?

Let me add... the soldier told me today, and I quote, "I was one of those guys that would look at another woman in a heartbeat... go on about how hot they were, or at least think it... but now... well, I notice those other women but I don't SEE them. I've got you, I don't need all that other stuff"

*swoon*

If this song doesn't cause you to get excited for Christ when you hear it... you need to check your relationship...

I will be singing this song this upcoming Tuesday night at my church & I have been asked to sing it with my sister in Christ when she gives her testimony at our hometown Celebrate Recovery in the next few months... I am so blessed to have her back in my life.

Our God is SO big & so GOOD!





There's a peace I've come to know
Though my heart and flesh may fail
There's an anchor for my soul
I can say, "It is well"

Jesus has overcome
and the grave is overwhelmed
The victory is won
He is risen from the dead

And I will rise
When He calls my name
No more sorrow, no more pain
I will rise, on eagle's wings
Before my God
fall on my knees,
and rise...
I will rise

There's a day that's drawing near
when this darkness breaks to light
and the shadows disappear
and my faith shall be my eyes

Jesus has overcome
and the grave is overwhelmed
The victory is won
He is risen from the dead

And I will rise
when He calls my name
No more sorrow, no more pain
I will rise, on eagle's wings
Before my God
fall on my knees,
and rise...
I will rise

And I hear the voice of many angels sing
Worthy is the Lamb!
And I hear the cry of every longing heart
Worthy is the Lamb!

And I hear the voice of many angels sing
Worthy is the Lamb!
And I hear the cry of every longing heart

You are worthy! You are worthy!
Worthy is the Lamb!


I will rise
when He calls my name
No more sorrow, no more pain
I will rise, on eagle's wings
Before my God
fall on my knees,
and rise...
I will rise....
I will rise....
~Chris Tomlin
I Will Rise

This change is eating away at me like a disease.
Everyone and everything around me is changing.
But not for the better.

It's a lost cause to fight for the past.
To fight for the days of smiles and laughter would only be a waste of my time.
The people I once called my "friends" just left me hanging.
I should have known better than to rely on anyone but myself.
Insignificance is a familiar feeling to me now.

But the world isn't familiar.
Everyone, even I, have lost appreciation for the littlest things.
How pathetic.
I'm tired of reality. I'm sick of feeling so small, so unimportant.
Like I don't belong. Anywhere. With anyone.
I need a change of a new kind.
I need a change for the better.
I need an end to this unforgiving, monotonous tragedy.
Give me the change I'm so frantically searching for.